Brown Eyes

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night


The way we held each others hand,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
ohhhhhh,

I know that he loves me cause told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so


Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

I'm so happy, so happy that your in my my life
and baby now that your apart of me
you've showed me
showed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)
and I know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

Catch Me I'm Falling

I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I felt something that seems so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
'Cause I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And I can't go along pretending
that love is in here to stay
catch me im falling for you

If I could just walk away
Without you from day to day
I would die just thinking of you
I think that we’ll never be
More than friends, you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

Maybe someday I’ll see
Why love did this to me
'Cause I can’t go along,pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me, I’m falling for you
Catch me, I’m falling for you

And is it wrong for me to feel this way
'Cause I don’t know what to do without you
I’M FALLING FOR YOU
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I'm falling for you

If ever you're in my arms again

It all came so easy, all the loving you gave me
The feelings we shared, and I still can remember
How your touch was so tender, it told me you cared
We had a once in a lifetime
But I just couldn't see, until it was gone
A second once in a lifetime, may be too much to ask
But I swear from now on

Chorus:
If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll love you much better
If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll hold you forever
This time will never end

Now I'm seeing clearly
How I still need you near me
I still love you so
There's something between us
That won't ever leave us
There's no letting go
We had a once in a lifetime
But I just didn't know it
Till my life fell apart
A second once in a lifetime
Isn't too much to ask
'Cause I swear from the heart

Chorus

The best of romances,
deserve second chances
I'll get to you somehow
'Cause I promise now

Singles' Encounter Weekend No. 12

I've never felt so much touched by God until I met them...

For the past few days, I've been not myself anymore. I've been trying to be ok yet it still hurts so much inside... like my heart is going to burst into tiny pieces... I'm so happy God has given me many true friends that I could count on through thick and thin. They help me to move on and fix my broken life... One of them encouraged me to join her on a retreat held last April 18-20, 2008 in Sienna Retreat House, San Jose del Monte City, Bulacan then my life started to change...

Struggling to make the journey

It was a busy Friday and the work load for the day really burned me out. My team lead for tech support was on leave too. That day was so miserable. My friend already called me, telling me that we were running late for the retreat and yet, I'm the midst of a rush task. I rushed, trying to finish everything before I leave but I really lack the time. I just left my work and almost fly to her apartment to fetch her. It's difficult to have a ride - either by cab or jeepney. I was already losing my patience as I wait in Ayala Avenue for almost an hour. After fetching my friend, we hurried to the MRT and went to Ortigas where her parents were already waiting to drive us to the retreat house. When we arrived at Gate-2, it was 9.30 pm and we needed to wait for another hour for someone to lead us to the other gate because it is already locked... At last, we arrived but we missed the first session...

The chosen ones of God

There, I met them, the chosen ones of God... All in all, we were 13 candidates for Singles' Encounter Weekend 12.

Myself aka "computer geek"
Charmaine Xyza San Miguel aka "reyna ng sablay"
Rhea Diaz aka "obsessive complusive"
Madel Roxas aka "happy person"
Christine Aguilar
Mariz Lazaro aka "kikay"
Janina Charise Bautista aka "baby chef"

Lui Pacheco aka "rehab boy"
Ron Roxas aka "matakaw"
Jayson Rivera aka "baluktot"
Raymond Ramirez
Dexter Anguac
Juan Paolo Lleno

Know thy self

In that retreat, I began to discover myself again... I've known the different masks that I wear for me to be acceptable by other people. During those sessions, I can't help but cry with all the things that I've realized. I let go of pain, anger, rejection, fear and other emotions and I felt so much better now...

The truth shall set you free

The truth really hurts but one must accept it to be free. I've become to realize that I've been only pretending most of the time to please everybody. I would start moving all the masks and be true to myself. Now, I've opened up my eyes to the reality that when you love, you would also get hurt... and you need to love yourself first before loving others. Respect yourself.

The start of something new

It is nice to know that there are people caring for you. God uses other people as instruments for us to find the true meaning of life. Everyday, the SE 12 group would send group messages to each other - share what they feel, their problems and achievements. There is a sense of belongingness that they let me feel even if we're all separated by distance. We long for each other's presence and our bonding last retreat was quite strong that even if we are faced with difficult challenges in life, we could surpass them all with the help of each other.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

"Love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

I've known these biblical verses ever since I was in grade school... Only now, I have fully understood its true meaning...True love is really difficult to achieve.

Love is patient, love is kind

I remember the time when I was supposed meet my ex-bf before. He told me to meet him at the the train station... His mobile phone could not be reached when I have attempted to call him as I was standing there for 2 hours already. Then, I have decided to call him at their house. I found out that he just woke up. I've already been waiting for hours... *Sighs...* It took him 1 hour to prepare himself and another 2 hours to go to where I am... total of 5 hours all in all. I've still managed to wait for him even though I really wanna shout at him for being late and making me wait all the time.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking

He often hurts me with his words and his actions... He does not appreciate a bit of me and I feel I'm not treasured at all... He's bad to me, as they say to me, but I loved him so much that I didn't want to leave him before...

It is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs

I wanna get angry every time he does it to me... Whenever I try to fix things for both of us, he'll just walk away and I would just run after him, even if the reason of all the arguments is just simple. But I really loved him that time, I always run after him...

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth

The truth hurts but it shall set you free... When my ex-bf told me he wants to broke up with me, my tears can't help but fall... Here was the guy I have loved more than I have even loved myself and he wanted his freedom. It really hurts and the pain was great, but it is the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves

I have always wished that he would fetch me from school and the office, but he was not like that. He preferred being with his group of friends and always entrusting other people to take care of me. I envied those girls with those type of boyfriends who always attend immediately to their needs... I always hoped that he wanted to protect me...

Love never fails

After our long relationship that lasted for 3 years 9 months, I really broke down... My heart was shattered into pieces... I tried to make him come back to me. I almost knelt down before him, asking him to choose me over her but he turned around and left me. I wanna believe it's not over but... our precious relationship ended and we failed...

If you asked me to

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
Its been a long time since Ive had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said Id never let nobody near my heart again darlin
I said Id never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since Ive been around you
Cant go back to being on my own
Cant help feeling darling since Ive found you
That Ive found my home
That Im finally home
I said Id never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

(but if you asked me to...)

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and Ill do anything for you baby, for you baby

If you asked me to
Id let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...

Let the Joy Rise

It was one of those unfamiliar days
I was looking for one friendly face
There seemed to be a dark cloud hanging over my heard
But I was never known to be sad
All I wanted was to spread love and get some back
I know the brighter days will come and find me

And when there were times when I feel all alone
I reach down inside, feel the strength in my soul
I look to the skies, dry the tears from my eyes

I let the joy rise, from the ocean to the morning sky
And if the love falls, just remember
You've got to let the joy rise

My solid rock that I stand on now
My inner faith has lifted me up now
I'm free and happy to shine my light on you, for you, oh...

There are no more times when I feel all alone
I reached down inside, feel the strength in my soul
I look to the skies, dry the tears from my eyes

I let the joy rise, from the ocean to the morning sky
And if the love falls, just remember
You've got to let the joy rise